How Many Five Year Olds Could You Take In A Fight?

OK, I have to admit this cracked me up.. especially since my son is 5 years old:

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Big Deal

Listening to a song by Everything but the Girl that I've never heard. I swear to god. How did it get into my iTunes?

Big Deal

You don't know what's wrong, you only know it isn't right.
You don't remember for how long, but you wake in tears at night.
Big deal.
Big deal.

You spend four nights a week now looking for your inner child.
What you gonna say when you find him?
Suppose you don't like him or he doesn't like you?
Suppose once you wake him up he won't go back to bed and wants to stay up late
Watching TV?
But you say there must be some reason why you feel this way.
Big deal, that's the way we all feel.
Big deal, what is it you wanna feel?
Big deal, that's the way we all feel.
Big deal, what is it you wanna feel?

You say you wanna get cured, you wanna turn off your head.
Oh and you say it hurts, and you feel unsure.
First you doubt yourself and then you doubt her.
Big deal, that's the way we all feel.
Big deal, what is it you wanna feel?
Big deal, that's the way I feel.
Big deal, what she think she feels?
What is it you wanna feel?
I don't think you wanna feel

Relationship burn out

Just watched two days in Paris. It was ok. Seemed to follow a similar format to Before Sunrise and Before Sunset, only it didn't grab me like those movies.


What I did find mildly interesting (if somewhat morbid) was her final monologue. She and her boyfriend of two years took a trip to Venice (which sounded like it didn't go well at all) and then decide to stop in Paris for two days before going home. While there, he meets a bunch of her exes, and ends up accusing her of having an affair with one. They part on the streets, and meet up again a couple hours later. They have this last conversation, which appears to be a break-up conversation (although it was unclear at the end if they stayed together or not).

Anyway, she narrates over their whole conversation:

It always fascinates me how people go from loving you madly... to nothing at all

nothing.

it hurts so much

here is it. one more, one less. another wasted love story

i really loved this one

...

we will slowly think of each other less and less
until we forget each other completely...

almost.

its always the same for me:

break up, break down
drink up, fool around
meet one guy, then another,
fuck around, forget the one and only,

then after a few months, of total emptiness,
start again to look for true love
desperately look everywhere

and after two years of loneliness
meet a new love and swear it is the one
until its gone as well

the Fall

I swear, I wanted to see Indiana Jones. I bought the right ticket and everything. I went upstairs, saw the door to the theater closed, then hopped the railing and went in the other theater.

The movie was late, about 20 minutes late starting. That should have tipped me off. The previews rolled on and then the movie started... only... it didn't look like Indiana Jones. The intro was gorgeously shot, overexposed color and slow motion. It looked like an older time, there was a steam engine on train tracks, high above a river. Men shouting, working hard to haul something out of the water. A horse, slumped in straps. Then the title of the movie came up: The Fall

I used my iphone to check out the synopsis to see if I should stay or go. Here is the synopsis:

In a hospital on the outskirts of 1920s Los Angeles, an injured stuntman (Pace) begins to tell a fellow patient, a little girl with a broken arm (Untaru), a fantastical story about 5 mythical heroes. Thanks to his fractured state of mind and her vivid imagination, the line between fiction and reality starts to blur as the tale advances.

So I sat back and watched. It was really quite fanciful at times, and sad at others. I got the same feeling I got when I watched Cinema Paradiso. Touched and enthralled. And I had no idea what I was in for.

I think you should see it too. Here is the trailer.

Walk Away

Spent a very lovely evening showing my new friend Catherine around SF. Tomorrow she heads back to her home in Montreal.

On the way home, I put the iPhone on shuffle and got this song:

"Walk Away"
by Ben Harper

Oh no- here comes that sun again.
And (that) means another day without you my friend.
And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself.
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else.

CHORUS
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away.

With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun.

CHORUS

We've tried the goodbye so many days.
We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray.
They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free,
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery.
They say time will make all this go away,
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays.
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found.

CHORUS

Closing in

I debated whether or not to go to the cocktail networking function after the conference today. I'm glad I did. Met a whole bunch of Canadians (and a midwesterner) and took them to the Globe. I think they were suitable impressed :) I have had a lot of good memories at that restaurant. D used to take me there when I got back from traveling to the midwest to remind me of why I live in San Francisco. They have excellent food, and they server dinner late (open until 1am on weekdays). They are known among restaurant folk as a good after-work place.

Back in my house in the hills. I stood on the deck and smoked a clove cigarette, the spice lingering on my tongue, a smile on my lips. The mist closing in on my house, making things seems cosy in the dark. A nice night.

Closing In
by Imogen Heap
mp3

I can't wait
To be with you
No I just can't sit still,
Are we there yet?
Takes me back,
I remember
Such a magical place
It was all you...

Closing in
I hope that you make it
Closing in
I hope that you find your way

Frame by frame,
Red speed ahead
A city dissolving,
The threat of your love in the headlights
Is it safe now?
Will your arms be open?
I just have to kiss you,
Try and stop me

Closing in
I hope that you make it
Closing in
I hope that you find your way
Closing in
It’s all that I want in the whole world
Closing in
Please be there, please be there

What are you like?
Where did you get to?
No word no nothing
You didn't hold me, for any longer
Did you walk for the fear of love?
Or don't you believe enough?
Well I'll cover both of us
You can leave that to me!

Closing in
I hope that you make it
Closing in
I hope that you find your way
Closing in...closing in...

how does my garden grow?

Did some more work on my garden this weekend: installed more plants. Its really coming along!

my new tattoo?

I have a two tattoos that I am planning. One is a set of wings (small and black with iridescent blue/green coloring). The other is one that is music themed. I wanted to have a graphical treatment of musical symbols, and I think I finally hit on one that I like!



This will go on my right shoulder. I think I need to sleep on it and see, but I'm very close.

yellow submarine needs to go to the playa

I built a 7.5' long yellow submarine for my son's kindergarten class' variety show act. It is now sitting in my carport, begging to be taken to Burning Man this year. Free of charge! I would love to see pictures of it on the playa, and pictures of it burning. It is essentially a cardboard box, with masking tape and newspaper.

I also have a bunch of paper fish on sticks that were used as props. You can take those too if you want. I will also throw in the rest of the yellow paint, in case you need it.

documentation on how I built it

leave a comment on this blog to contact me.

more house cleaning

Deleted over 3000 emails from my Sent folder, some going back to 2002. Deleted entire groups of client emails. Trashed emails from old lovers without even looking at them (ok, I did look at SOME :)

Clearing the space feels so GOOD. Now its time to go to bed. But FIRST: a little Law & Order....

Yelp!

I am addicted to Yelp. Help! :) eeeeegads

I've posted exactly four reviews, and I'm itching to do more. Why do I have to work? Oh right, the money! ;)

http://jenniferwilde.yelp.com

funny developer Tshirts

The Moscone Center is on my walk between BART and the office. Right now the Apple WWDC is going on. Briefly flirted with the idea of trolling for a date there, dismissed after a brief chuckle.

But I did see a couple of funny T-shirts:

I'm not slacking,
my code's compiling

and

There are 10 kinds of people in this world:
Those that know binary, and those that don't

And if you thought those were funny you are as much of a geek as I am!! :)