Sometimes you just need to get laid. At least that's what I've been told. Huh. If only some simple physical encounter could solve all my problems! Well, its a nice fantasy, any way. And I'm sure it would be a nice escape. But alas, I'll just have to deal with all that's happening on my own.

Yeah.

Clarity comes and goes. Everytime I have it, I get surer. Every time I lose it, I get frustrated: "Haven't I already had that conversation?? Didn't go through all thiis before?" I think I will know more after Thursday morning. Anticipation, anxiety, hope, resignation... man. My life is like my music these days, and there are times, like now, where I feel like I'm just living for the next moment of levity.

Vague? Yes. But that's the way it has to be...