Bittersweet the New Beginning

Standing at the point of transformation, I pause, seeing both sides. And while I've been pushing forward all this time, I take a moment to look back and take in the view. It is breathtaking in its breadth, painful in its beauty, I am weeping. A lesser soul would ask "what have I done?" but I already know the answer to that. And just because I feel pain does not mean I should stop.

But oh, the pain. Sometimes it threatens to pull me under. Especially when it comes in the form of a sweet song that perfectly captures this moment, in all its hope and sorrow.

Wedding Day by Rosie Thomas [check her out]

I had the pleasure to hear her perform on Friday at the Swedish American Hall in San Francisco. She could have been a comedienne, she was sweet and funny, and her voice touched me deeply. I talked to her after the show, don't know what possessed me to give her my CD. She is my new favorite singer/songwriter.

Settling in

Ahhhhh a new situation, a new start. Settling in now, testing out the solitude. Some days are easier than others. Some days I'm haunted by the silence. Where are the happy sounds I used to hear? Other times I relish the silence. Breathe deeply in this space that is mine.

But today was one of the former, not the latter. And with that, I give you Ben Harper, Another Lonely Day (mp3). I know it comes and goes, and that in the end, it will all be ok. Just let me have my moments, alright?