Sad to see you go

Even though it didn't work out between us, I am sad to see you go. Even though this is obviously the best thing for your health and well-being, I still wish you could stay.

I will always remember how you held me that day in the swimming pool. How I felt utterly relaxed and at ease, safe in your arms.

You made making music fun for me again. I was so happy, building the studio with you. You made me smile and laugh. And yet your darkness mirrored my own at times. There were many times I felt we were two hurt children huddling together for warmth.

I knew it couldn't last. Too transitional. But I wish you all the best, I really do.

Another goodbye. I feel like an anxious toddler who fell down, looking at mom to see if I should cry or not. Is now the time to cry? I am more upset than I thought I would be, but not enough to get too worked up.

Acceptance, I guess.