nightmare
i'm walking along the side of the freeway. and part of me realizes that this is a very odd thing. i mean, how did i get here? i would never do this. cars are going past me, very very close. one car is almost hits me; its is full of these angry men, thugs. they stop the car, come after me with baseball bats. they are going to hurt me.
i run, down the freeway off-ramp (it was so close, why didn't i get off before?) I am barely ahead of them, but then i turn a corner, go into this little cul de sac. i'm sobbing "they are going to kill me!" and this nice older man and his wife take me inside their house. all of a sudden i am transformed. they will not recognize you now, he assures me. but i think to myself "i havent changed enough".
there is something about this place that makes me never want to leave. my car magically pulls into the driveway of a house near the nice couple's. next to the car port there is another open area with a roof. on top of the roof is a tent, which i see through a hole in the roof. it is raining and rain is pouring through the hole. but the tent is just open, i think. i could close it, and it would be pretty cozy up there.
the walls of the room downstairs become insulated. its the house working its magic. or maybe its just me, making this into my very own sanctuary. i have a much younger sister, suddenly, and she wants to stay. "ive never had a real mom and dad!" the nice older couple hug us as if we are their long lost daughters. we decide to go for a picnic. nothing could go wrong.
we step outside the house, and i look next door. there are the men. they live here, and one of them, who is mute, has recognized me. he grunts wildly, getting the attention of his gang members. i run to my new family, hoping against all odds that the rest of them dont see me.
but they do, and i hear them running behind me. this time they WILL kill me. i am running over grassy knolls, sobbing "they found me!" my new found father figure stops, turns, prepares to meet them head on. I know in an instant what he means to do. He will assume my likeness, and they willl beat him to death. "NO!" i try to yell, but it comes out a whisper. they are getting closer, i cannot do anything.
and then i wake up
i run, down the freeway off-ramp (it was so close, why didn't i get off before?) I am barely ahead of them, but then i turn a corner, go into this little cul de sac. i'm sobbing "they are going to kill me!" and this nice older man and his wife take me inside their house. all of a sudden i am transformed. they will not recognize you now, he assures me. but i think to myself "i havent changed enough".
there is something about this place that makes me never want to leave. my car magically pulls into the driveway of a house near the nice couple's. next to the car port there is another open area with a roof. on top of the roof is a tent, which i see through a hole in the roof. it is raining and rain is pouring through the hole. but the tent is just open, i think. i could close it, and it would be pretty cozy up there.
the walls of the room downstairs become insulated. its the house working its magic. or maybe its just me, making this into my very own sanctuary. i have a much younger sister, suddenly, and she wants to stay. "ive never had a real mom and dad!" the nice older couple hug us as if we are their long lost daughters. we decide to go for a picnic. nothing could go wrong.
we step outside the house, and i look next door. there are the men. they live here, and one of them, who is mute, has recognized me. he grunts wildly, getting the attention of his gang members. i run to my new family, hoping against all odds that the rest of them dont see me.
but they do, and i hear them running behind me. this time they WILL kill me. i am running over grassy knolls, sobbing "they found me!" my new found father figure stops, turns, prepares to meet them head on. I know in an instant what he means to do. He will assume my likeness, and they willl beat him to death. "NO!" i try to yell, but it comes out a whisper. they are getting closer, i cannot do anything.
and then i wake up
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