healing isn't linear

Feeling out of sorts today. Can't seem to focus. Worried about things in my life. At least I don't have to worry about the election any more; what's done is done!

I feel compelled to shut down, or to act out. I don't like being open, vulnerable. Why do I feel raw? Its been so long, I should be fine by now! Make it stop. I want to get off...

And I haven't even gotten started yet. This is just a little taste.

Sigh. Maybe its the weather. Maybe its my hormones. Perhaps its the upcoming wedding, that all of a sudden I am dreading.

There is nothing to do in this space. Just breathe, relax, and let go.

Multi-tasking. Actually, distracting myself from completing my taxes for 2005. So tedious, my brain wanders away and creates other thing for me to do. Ooo look, let me put up my new site design. Ooo look I need to find out my blogger password and see if I can post it to my new site. OOO LOOK, I can check email!!

For goodness sakes... I need to focus!