Dream vs Reality

I dreamed last night that a man I knew said "I love you" to me, in this terribly sweet and hushed way. The alarm went off at 6am and I promptly forgot all about it. I was toweling off in the locker room later that morning and it came back to me in a flash. I stood there for several minutes, trying to remember who it was in my dream. It never came back to me, so I guess it was someone I knew only in the dreamtime. You know, when you feel like you recognize someone, but when you wake you know you don't. All I remember is the impact of the words, the way my heart felt hot and dark at the same time.

Earlier this week I found myself on the other side of rejection. I like to think I let him down compassionately. He was a sweet man (and an amazing kisser), but it would have never worked out. I just wasn't feeling it like he was. Ahhhhhh so THAT'S what that feels like!

Through it all, I still remain a hopeFUL romantic, if more cautiously optimistic these days. Mostly, I'm enjoying being on my own. I've got plenty to occupy me what with work, and Skyler, and cello, music, and the gym. As my dad would say: "that'll keep you off the streets".

my garden

As promised, pictures:

see how my garden grows

I spent most of today digging through receipts (paper and digital) to prep for 2007 taxes. Definitely feeling like I am clearing out dead energy, like fallen leaves. Good, but tedious!

I took a break in the middle to go to Home Depot to get a new pump for the stone water fountain I bought from Gilman Salvage. I also bought a carved wooden bench there, it looks like a snake with legs. Very appropos for the Snake House ;)

Now I have a little garden all to myself, in what was once a hill of dirt. I even have a little secret alcove among the bamboo for a laughing buddha and some small plants that surround him. Today I cleaned, assembled and finished the fountain (it has tiers that look like flowers) and planted all the plants around it. It looks so lovely!

Tomorrow I'll try to take some pictures before work to add to this post.